Bother

I'm bothered by people who decide that other people's way of doing things are wrong. And I do it too (hey, I'm doing it right now), but it really bugs me very deeply. It bugs me in myself maybe especially! This is a big struggle I've been going through and especially focusing on during Lent. A lot of people see Christians as this big judgmental thing. A lot of Christians are that kind of judgmental, including myself at times, but that's hardly Jesus's fault. Poor guy, he gets so twisted by the stuff we do. A lot of non-Christians are judgmental like that, too, to be fair, but they're less organized about it at times.

Ultimately, I believe in a loving God. I don't believe that he wants anyone - anyone - to fall through the cracks. I believe that he's big enough to keep everyone in his hand, and he does. So how can I look at other people and try to weigh their souls? Isn't that not my job? Isn't God merciful and loving? So can't I just let it go?

Why can't I sometimes? Why do I really look at others sometimes and think they are not just different, but completely wrong? Why can't I take care of my own actions and leave theirs alone? Sometimes it's very hard to do that. Even with strangers, if they're bugging me. The woman in the pool lane next to mine who splashes me.